“All I keep in mind was him becoming on top of me saying ‘don’t tell anyone, this is our secret’, and all I wanted to do was scream, but no one could hear me.”
John Gordon is haunted by the sexual assaults and beatings he says he suffered as a youngster at the Retta Dixon Home, a Commonwealth-funded, religious institution in Darwin.
This is the initial time he has spoken about the abuse he mentioned was committed by the man he came to regard as his father.
The Northern Territory hearings of the Royal Commission into Institutional Responses to Kid Sexual Abuse heard harrowing allegations against that man, Donald Henderson.
All I bear in mind is when I was 10 years old I was one particular of the special ones, I was selected.
Mr Henderson and his wife lived at the Retta Dixon home from 1964 till 1975, operating as “cottage parents” whose job was to raise the Aboriginal kids who had been brought there by the Commonwealth.
Mr Gordon had lived at the house since he was taken from his family members as a baby.
He stated when he was 10 years old, the Hendersons decided to adopt him.
It was most probably an informal adoption as John has no paperwork.
“All I don’t forget is when I was 10 years old I was one particular of the particular ones, I was selected,” he stated.
Mr Gordon stated his adoptive father would beat and molest him.
“I nonetheless have dreams about it. The final time I had dreams like that I woke up the entire house screaming,” he mentioned.
“I sometimes feel like it really is my fault, I never know why.
“Did we do anything to turn the old bastard on? What’s his fetish? What did we do to deserve it? We need to have accomplished one thing to deserve it, done anything incorrect, otherwise it wouldn’t happen.”
Mr Gordon was going to give evidence at the royal commission but he had a heart attack as the hearings were about to begin.
In the 1980s, Mr Henderson was convicted of indecently assaulting two children who have been not from Retta Dixon and was offered a two-year great behaviour bond.
Mr Henderson was named at the royal commission as a single of Retta Dixon’s worst offenders, accused of beatings, molestation and rape.
Jarrell Kunoth is an additional alleged victim, breaking his silence for the initial time.
He said Mr Henderson sexually assaulted him when he was nine.
“He grabbed my foot and rubbed it on his private and I could not pull away because I was only young then and he was a massive robust man,” he said.
“Little factors like that plays on your mind, due to the fact it makes you really feel dirty.”
Alleged abuser living in gated community on Sunshine Coast
The Retta Dixon property was levelled by Cyclone Tracy in 1974 and the internet site where the facility as soon as stood is now a fairly barren public park.
Lateline tracked Mr Henderson down to a gated community on the Sunshine Coast, exactly where he lives with his wife and one more now grown-up kid — a girl who was adopted from Retta Dixon.
No-1 answered the door and neighbours said Mr Henderson had been in and out of hospital.
Mr Henderson has been charged with sex crimes against youngsters at Retta Dixon twice, but each instances have been dropped.
He was admitted to a mental well being institution shortly prior to the royal commission and did not appear to give proof.
Now he is one of the subjects of a class action, with 12 individuals claiming damages for sexual assaults he is alleged to have committed against them.
They want to take the Sunshine Coast house from him as compensation.
The other defendants are the Commonwealth and the religious organisation that ran the home.
There are a lot more than 80 claimants altogether who say they have been let down by the institution that was supposed to protect them.
The man who became his son, John Gordon, desires far more than money.
“Justice would appear like that man behind bars and the Government, someone be made accountable and created certain that they say yes, we are to blame,” he said.
“Someone has take the blame to be created accountable and a person has to spend.”
Watch the complete story tonight on Lateline at 9.30pm (AEDT) on ABC News 24 or 10.30pm on ABC Television.
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